Today, the shades are pulled down; this window doesn’t seem to have much of a view. I just returned from spending time with my mother who is very ill. She has Parkinson’s Disease. She was diagnosed in 2010 and has slowly declined to a weakened condition. I am her power of attorney, the responsible party, the person that looks in on her several times a week. She currently resides in an assisted living facility and has the additional help of caregiver twelve hours a day. In many ways, I think we are all blessed, and then we experience a day like today. Some PD patients experience hallucinations and delusions along with the physical decline that accompanies the progression of the disease. Today was a particularly difficult one in that she thought others were trying to kill her. Nothing I could say or do would calm her down. I can deal with the cats, snakes, people, bands that aren’t there, but this level of psychosis has triggered something in me. At this moment, I am sad and heartbroken. I feel my heart pounding in my chest. And that being said…I love to dance. Perhaps, I can learn to dance in this rain. <3 Donna
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